Tapping While Tapped

I look at the screen and I tap on the keys
My life is not what it was...what is seems
I have lights on and TV
and noises to please me
I hide
behind
the sounds

I take a sip then two
of this odd colored brew
warm in my tummy
but cold through and through

My brain starts to swim...
and its hard focusing
and I think I have achieved my goal
As the liquid dampens my soul...